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Looks like I got hit with depression again this summer. It's always been like this since 2009. The one thing I like about school is that it is a distraction. It makes me think less on my personal thoughts and focus more on school-related activities. With summer here and no school to distract me, I'm just a depressing mess.
Have you ever been left behind? Been told that you will always have contact with the person who said it? Been into that state of mind where you just want to throw up or chest starts hurting and you want nothing more than to just go home and lock yourself in your room around the beginning of the school year? That's me.
Seems like while everyone is living their lives forward, I continue living full blown into the past. I can't connect with them anymore.
There were two people in my life who actually dragged me out of this mess around the beginning of the last school year. I always come home to their comments which served as comfort to me every day. It just so happens that one of them was one of my best friends and the other was my crush. We stopped talking when Christmas was coming close and soon enough, that best friend just... disappeared. I haven't talked to her since then. And as for my crush, he's been going out a lot lately which is surprising considering he usually just stay at home and stuff. When the three of us stopped talking, I just shut myself out of the real world and I became the hardest person to contact.
I got to pull myself together. I told my crush that I was gonna see them again at their graduation on June 15. Maybe then it will calm my heart. But right now, I'm just gonna lay it low for a bit. I have no motivation for anything.
June 15 will end this. Hopefully.
Sorry for the depressing journal, but it felt good now that I let it out. I don't usually give out personal info about myself because I have trust issues, but right now I had to do it. I'll be making myself a personal blog to post these kinds of stuff though, so rest assured that this is the first (and hopefully last) personal journal you'll read/have on your journal notification. : )
Till later.
GUESS WHO GOT KH 1.5 + Birthday Thanks + SoKai Day
GUESS WHO PRE-ORDERED for the first time ever KINGDOM HEARTS 1.5 REMIX AND PICKED IT UP TODAY??? I DID!1!11!!1!1 omfg it's sho beautiful CREYZ. I was actually pretty depressed when I picked it up LOLOL 'cause I was expecting huge ass artbook you know, but when I got my receipt it said no artbook and I was like ~tearplz (https://www.deviantart.com/tearplz)... but actually, the disc case IS in fact the artbook LOL. It blew my mind I-- SO YEAH, THE LEFT PICTURE IS IN FACT MY ARTBOOK/DISC CASE. It's really really tiny though LOL size of a regular PS3 game case. The right is just the cover of it LOL sho pretty ahhhhh :iconsparklesplz: :iconsparklesplz: memory lane here I come !!
Moved to LA!
Some of you may have noticed my absence but now I'm back! ;v;
I recently gone to the Philippines for a week and unfortunately, none of my relatives have wifi so I had to deal with Globe's slow cellphone internet connection that crashes my browser every time. =__=
But now, I am in Los Angeles, California where I will be attending uni here. ;v; gahh I miss my simple life in Guam.
So how is everybody? With the huge announcements SE made at E3, I am for sure gonna be broke LOL.
Choose which art and MMD I should re-do!
omg, long time no see everybody LOL.
Although it seems like I haven't left since I still post art and MMDs here and there, it's been a while since I last communicated with my watchers. ;v; So how are you guys?
I was browsing through my gallery because I am a masochist like that and I just can't stand looking at the other half of my gallery LOL. It's like: Jesus, did I really draw like this back then...
So I need your help~! I want to redraw one art and redo one MMD but I just can't figure out which one is the worst of them all cuz all of them are soooo bad should I redo the most.
Which one do you want to see the most redone? ;v; Please ch
Summary of Art + MMD/XNALARA 2012 + SS doujinshis
Merry Christmas guys! 8DD Well, it's Christmas in my timezone at least lol. Since I don't like posting these sort of stuffs in my gallery, here is a meme of my drawings + MMD/XNAlara in 2012, gif form. XD I am glad that I improve over the year! And now that I have a tablet, I hope I continue to get better using it~ I can't make any XNAlara pics as some may have noticed for the past couple of months due to my dead computer and it's not supported in my laptop. D8
Anyway, I hope you guys have a Merry Christmas and get lots and lots of fat! 'Cause that's what's happening to me at the moment haha, what is being healthy. |||
Anway, I don't think
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i know how you feel! i'm really sorry! I had problems with my friends lately, i can't help thinking that it it my fault because I became a bit distant... But I have to find my place once again 
so.. i dunno.. I am really sorry!